Wow. I never cried like this before. I just can’t stop these tears running down from both my eyes. I really don’t know why the hell I’m crying like this? I’ve come to the point that I’m out of plans on how to handle all the requirements that I need to finish. Not only that, I’m running out of hope that I would even have the guts to face these fears that I have since I first stepped my feet in the university.
I’m always scared.
Every time I would recall these fears in my head, I can’t calm myself down. I’m acting weird and reckless just to hide these insecurities I have. I really need someone to talk to. I’m having a hard time coping all these bullshits with myself. I guess that’s the perks of being alone. I can’t just stop and give up everything that I’ve done in the past few months. This fear in my heart will never stray if I don’t face it personally. I feel like I’m running out of time and I felt discouraged with what’s happening in my life. I really just can’t stop now. I need to cope with myself and embrace these struggles that I’m facing.