I don’t depend on music to get me through life’s issues, I depend on it to complete life’s most basic tasks.
I can’t revise or study without music drowning out the million and one thoughts racing through my mind. It’s the same with falling asleep, cooking, cleaning, relaxing. It’s not unique, a lot of people do the same but I simply cannot function without that background noise.
Without I hear nothing but all the stupid things I’ve said and done, all the put-downs, the insults and ridiculing I’ve experienced.
It’s deafening and disabling.